Wasn’t able to update for a while because I’ve been busy with my new blogs… I’m still busy now but I just can’t concentrate on what I was doing now… I have to let this emotions go or else I’m gonna blow…
Well, I was playing Mafia Wars again last night and I run out of Mafias so I try to recruit my online friends. Was selecting which of them I will add when I saw a familiar name there. I was really surprised to see his name! Why and how did it happen? I didn’t add him in FB so I was really confused… I wasn’t sure he has an FB account though I keep on insisting before that he should sign up there. I checked my mail and searched… then I saw one mail from FB stating that ‘he’ had confirmed me as a friend in FB! WT*! Meaning, I was the one who added him first? And how did that happen? I haven’t drank any alcoholic drinks for months already so I am not drunk, I’m just really really confused…
I already deleted our FS account and I frequent on FB than in FS. I was ok, I guess… for months but just seeing his profile again on FB really has a big impact on me and I hate myself for feeling this way. I thought I was over him, it’s been a while… Then I saw in his recent activity that he added the girl who had been the cause of our break-up. He really like her a lot huh… I think they were connected in all the networking sites they were into. So, what’s the matter with that? Nothing, it’s just that this heart of mine is reacting again… I dunno why but tears had been starting to fall from my eyes again…. aarrggghhh!!! I really hate this feeling! Just when I thought I was really over him, this incident proved me wrong… Why am I feeling like this again… hay… I don’t wanna cry but I just can’t stop these tears from falling… It’s just a pic and him adding her but I am already reacting like this, how much more if I see him or them in person? Well, I guess it’s not possible… hay, i don’t wanna think about it anymore… napepending tuloy mga gawain ko online… hay… hay.. hay… God help me!
Tags: Emo
