Yeah another Here I Am moment again… I have made a post about me getting emotional again after seeing their sweet photos on facebook… Hay… and now as I was looking for a nice Air Supply song that best describes me, then there was Now and Forever, I can Wait Forever, All Out of Love and Here I Am… Just listening to one of these songs makes me sad… especially the Here I Am song… As I started to listen to it I can’t help but cry… the lyrics of the song hit me and my tears won’t just stop… Funny me, I was singing and crying at the same time… The song made me cry but I just can’t stop it from playing…
“Here I am playing with those memories again
And just when I thought time had set me free
Those thoughts of you keep taunting meHolding you, a feeling I never outgrew
Though each and every part of me has tried
Only you can fill that space inside
So theres no sense pretending
My heart its not mendingJust when I thought I was over you
And just when I thought I could stand on my own
Oh baby those memories come crashing through
And I just cant go on withoutOn my own Ive tried to make the best of it alone
Ive done everything I can to ease the pain
But only you can stop the rain
I just cant live without you
I miss everything about you”
Gosh! Ka-relate na ka-relate masyado, start pa lang ng song… I wonder when will this emo-ness of me will stop… Been so emo this past few days… I wonder what will be my mood on 10/12… Aarrgghh!!! I can’t imagine anymore… maybe I should take a sleeping pill that would last for a day… so when I wake up our supposed to be anniversary is already over… Well, even if it’ll work, what about the coming days? wahhh!! I don’t know what to do anymore… This feeling’s wouldn’t just go… Guess this is my karma, this is for all the pain I have caused him…
I wanted this feeling to end but somehow, deep inside me I want him back… I want us to be back again to what we used to be…
The last time I checked his friendster account, our pictures are still in his private photos… but there’s also a new set of album of him and his new gf… 
hay… he still haven’t changed his password… I made that one before… but he love someone else now… and he just love me as a friend na lang daw… best friend… ouch!
I remember I was singing the ‘I remember the boy but I don’t remember the feeling anymore’ last month but here I am… so pathetic… pa- I don’t remember the feeling pero sakitan diay gihapon… hhhaaayyy…. I just love him so much… until now i’m still hugging the pillow he gave me 5 or 6 years ago… this pillow is the sole witness of my emo-ness at night… if it could only talk, nag-reklamo na siya… hay.. have get rid of all the things he gave me except for this pillow…I can’t sleep without it… without hugging it… I just hug it whenever I miss him… poor pillow, deform na masyado but I still love it…
There’s no more Jarahby and Jerahby… No more Zachary Phyll and Zacheisha Freya…
I want you to come back and carry me home
Away from this long lonely nights
I’m reaching for you, are you feeling it too
Does the feeling seem oh so right
And what would you say if I called on you now
And said that I can’t hold on
There’s no easy way, it gets harder each day
Please love me or I’ll be gone, I’ll be gone
I ‘m all out of love, I’m so lost without you
I know you were right believing for so long
I ‘m all out of love, what am I without you
I can’t be too late to say that I was so wrong
