Here I am again… listening to the song we used to sing before… and I can’t help but cry again… remembering those times when we were still together and happy… i really missed it a lot…I’ve been silent about this for the past seven months and haven’t blog about this for quite some time but now I’m back again, to my emo state… Everything went back to what it used to seven months ago…. All went back since the ‘add friend’ incident on Facebook. It still hurts… and I just can’t seem to be happy, I know he’s happy now that he found someone new but it just hurt knowing he had already moved on… while here I am still lingering on the past… Wishing for him to love me back…
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Take Me To Your Heart
2009
06.30
06.30
6 8 12
2009
06.28
06.28
Ooh, ooh
Do you ever think about me?
Do you ever cry yourself to sleep?
In the middle of the night when you’re awake,
Are you calling out for me?
Do you ever reminisce?
I can’t believe I’m acting like this
I know it’s crazy
How I still can feel your kiss
[1] – It’s been six months, eight days, twelve hours
Since you went away
I miss you so much and I don’t know what to say
I should be over you
I should know better but it’s just not the case
It’s been six months, eight days, twelve hours
Since you went away
Do you ever ask about me?
Do your friends still tell you what to do?
Every time the phone rings,
Do you wish it was me calling you?
Do you still feel the same?
Or has time put out the flame?
I miss you
Is everything okay?
[Repeat 1]
It’s hard enough just passing the time
When I can’t seem to get you off my mind
And where is the good in goodbye?
Tell me why, tell me why
[Repeat 1]
Sing it for me
Ooh, ooh
I Wanna be HAPPY…
2009
06.27
06.27
Happy… I am feeling not so happy… I wanna be happy… You make me not so happy… Can´t you see I’m not happy now…
Sounds familiar? It’s from Square Heads’ ‘Happy.’ I just changed the lyrics and added the ‘not’ word… Coz I’m not happy… though I wanna be happy… Waaaahhh!!!
I just can’t find myself being happy… I received my Google Adsense earnings yesterday, I should be happy right? The feeling was just like it’s a normal thing that happen so often, though it isn’t. I waited one year for this and I was like ‘Oh, okay, I’ll be receiving my payment’ like nothing’s special about it.
Hay… still keep on thinking about him… 
and I just can’t take him off my mind!!! 
Meet with my friends after receiving my money, Janed’s back in Davao again after four months of staying in Manila. Then we eat dinner… was really trying to be happy around them… I enjoyed being with them for a while though and I’m glad we met again after a long time, missed them a lot…
Janed told me to forget him na… I just hope I can… 
So It’s Official….
2009
06.26
06.26
Official naman talaga, why would he put it in his profile if it isn’t? C’mon miah, you’re just hurting yourself again! I hate you! I hate this feeling! Seems like it won’t go away… as in far far away… Waaahhh!!! 
I hate this… Emo emo again… 
I was happy for a while because I will be receiving my very first payment in adsense… but then, one of our common friend was online and we have a li’l chit chat… and yeah she told me… he told her… aarrggghhh!!! What would I do now… what would I do to not feel this way…. I hate myself! I hate myself! I hate myself! 
Bored…
2009
06.23
06.23
Yeah, feel so bored! I hate it when our interconnection’s like this, oh so S-L-O-W… Can’t surf other websites, the only site I have access right now, is Plurk but no one seems to be online there too, guess almost all of us have the same dilemma. Opened my Google mail, Facebook’s Restaurant City and Mafia Wars too, the only application I can open, can’t access Texas Hold’Em Poker… Hmm.. What else? I played Monster Hunter Freedom 2 in PSP and killed some Blangos but wasn’t able to kill that giant and scary Blangonga. It moved so fast and I just can’t beat it, for now… Hehehe… I know I’m gonna beat it too just like the Khezu, it took me more than five times before I was able to kill it, hahaha…
Hhmmm… and yeah, i open my mail in Facebook and received a reply from my sister, I told her the other day that the ticket’s she gave me will expire on the 25th of this month! Yeah, hmm.. today’s 24, so that means it will expire tomorrow! Arrgghh… Sayang… If I haven’t deleted a few of my photos on my Friendster account, I wouldn’t remember about the tickets that she gave me last Christmas. Anyways, I’m still happy though because she told me that she issued a new set of tickets for me again,! Yippeeee!! Two sets of tickets! One is a business class and the other one is economy… Hmmm… I really hope that I could use those tickets this time and I hope there will be a direct Cathay Pacific flights from Davao to Hong Kong, lolz. So that I wouldn’t have to buy a Davao to Manila tickets anymore…
Anyways, I hope this post will go through and after posting this, I’m gonna watch a movie, Aeon Flux. I’ve watched What Happens in Vegas a few minutes ago before I did go online, again. I came back coz I thought the connection might be okay now but it seems not so, gonna bid farewell now… I’ll watch a movie again, hoping I’ll doze off afterwards… Nah… Goodluck! LOL…
What Keeps Me Busy at this Hour…
2009
06.18
06.18
Well, I did make a few posts on my blogs earlier, I still haven’t manage to update my other blogger blogs, will have to make a few maybe later in the evening. I plurk, well, I am not so active right now unlike yesterday but I just let my plurk browser open, and ofcourse my Facebook too! My twitter, though I just posted a few tweets not related to advertising so that my twitter followers won’t think I am just a scam posting ads every now and then. I signed up at revtwt and I just let them post ads thru my twitter, so even if I;m not online, they’ll just post the ads there. I get tired of manually posting the ads on my twitter everyday so I set it to automatic. I just hope my followers won’t be irritated with it, though it doesn’t really post in every single minute, I think it has an hour or two intervals. Anyways, I’m going far from the main topic… Hehehe… Okay, here’s what I did:
Pasaway
2009
06.18
06.18
I hate this feeling… I just can’t get him out of my mind and now he’s in my dreams too! This all started two nights ago when I accidentally found out that he confirmed me as his friend on FB, which by the way is very confusing coz I didn’t add him there… Then I started viewing his profile for updates and even in FS… Silly me, now I’m the one who’s getting hurt again… He has changed his status into ‘In a Relationship’ and my heart beats faster and faster and I feel the pain again… Why is this happening… I really don’t want this feeling… I’m being unproductive again and worst he keeps running on my mind, as in always, even if I tried to be busy with other things, he would just pop into my thoughts. Arrgghh!!! I wanna be free from you…
Right now I am fighting the urge not to view any of his profiles online… I felt like crying again everytime I do so, but I dunno why I still keep on viewing it. Hay pasaway na heart… Kainis… Do I still have feelings for him? Waahhh… hay… stop…stop…stop… and I’m gonna stop this nonsense post…
Emo Again…
2009
06.16
06.16
Wasn’t able to update for a while because I’ve been busy with my new blogs… I’m still busy now but I just can’t concentrate on what I was doing now… I have to let this emotions go or else I’m gonna blow…
