I knew that I would end up crying if I’ll watch this movie. But Rhon kept on telling me about how she like the movie specially the part where Lara (Bea Alonzo) is trying to do the things that she couldn’t do alone before. Things that you can’t do without the person you love.
It was something that most people wouldn’t or couldn’t do after someone that they have loved left them or have passed away. For me, it was a brave act that one must really do in order to move on, but not everyone is as brave as what Lara did in the movie… Especially if the things that you will be doing alone would just let you remember of the person you love.
The movie gave me an idea on what should I do to completely move on and forget P… It’s not that easy but I would still want to try it out… Ika nga: there’s no harm in trying… Good luck na lang sa akin!
Year 2009 had past, there are things last year that I still haven’t done so I wanted to make sure now that these things should be done. Last year, I had been so spendthrift, I have no savings, so this year, I WOULD really really save my earnings. Though I may be living with my parent, I do have my own personal needs too. But I have to limit myself now, I should not spend too much on things that are not really important. My goal this year is to be more responsible in handling my earnings, I just realized a few days ago that I have earned a lot and yet I haven’t have any savings in my bank! I am responsible for myself, if I get sick or what, I don’t bother them, I don’t want to ask anything to my mom… She had lots of problems already and I don’t want to be a burden… I wanted to be independent someday, but for now I have to save first…
So this Year 2010:
I NEED to SAVE!(Meaning, limit na ang pag shopping²! ) Coz I always think I needed to treat myself for a job well done, hehehe… Hmmm.. Limit na lang gyud! Palusot pa gyud uie, lol…
Learn how to Drive (again). I’ve forgotten how to drive already, lol.
Finish the short course I am currently enrolled in… (and hopefully I’ll be able to get opportunities from this).
Be more active in Blogging!
Find a JOB! I need a stable job, so I can earn double. I am currently earning from my blogs for a year already and I am planning to save all of my earnings in blogging when I have found a new job. That way, I can achieve my goal fast. *goodluck*
Be fit! Needs to exercise and be fit, I have noticed last year that I often get sick. I wish I wouldn’t be sickly this year…
Hmmm… I think this will be all for this year, I hope this year would be better than last year’s. Wish me Luck!
Yup, finally, I’ve been able to delete them in my Facebook and Friendster account… Yay! I have already made a promise to myself not to make any connections to them especially to P… Hmm, I greeted him Merry Christmas and Happy New Year first and then I deleted him in my friend’s list, and also M and N… Hala ka noh, now ko lang napansin, M, N and P… LOL! Letter ‘O’ na lang kulang magkasunod na jud sa alphabet ang initials sa mga exes… LOL! Anyways, I’m happy I’ve finally did this thing, it is way overdue and I don’t want to see P’s updates on how he miss his gf , blah blah blah… , lol. He was not that showy of his feelings before, well, people change and so does he… He had changed a lot… Well, I don’t have to think about him anymore, I have to think of myself now. Plan something good for the upcoming year 2010… Hmm.. it’s gonna be a NEW YEAR for me… I may not really forget everything on my past but hopefully I can manage to slowly forget and really MOVE ON… Good Luck to meh!
Here I go again I promised myself I wouldn’t think of you today
It’s been seven months and counting You’ve moved on
I still feel exactly the same
It’s just that everywhere I go all the buildings know your name
Like photographs and memories of love
Steel and granite reminders
The city calls your name and I can’t move on
Ever since you’ve been gone
The lights go out the same
The only difference is
You call another name
To your love
To your lover now
To your love
The lover after me
Am I all alone in the universe?
There’s no love on these streets
I have given mine away to a world that didn’t want it anyway
So this is my new freedom
It’s funny
I don’t remember being chained
But nothing seems to make sense anymore
Without you I’m always twenty minutes late
Ever since you’ve been gone
The lights go out the same
The only difference is
You call another name
To your love
To your lover now
To your love
The lover after me
And time goes by so slowly
The nights are cold and lonely
I shouldn’t be holding on
But I’m still holding on for you
Here I go again
I promised myself I wouldn’t think of you today
But I’m standing at your doorway
I’m calling out your name because I can’t move on
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok
But that’s not what gets me
It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ It
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken
What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
Hay naku, LSS nanaman ako sa ‘Sana Ngayong Pasko‘, it started when my sister called yesterday and she wanted me buy Sarah Geronimo’s album with that song on it and she keeps on singing it to me so that I wouldn’t forget… Lol! Di ko nga nakalimutan, hahaha… LSS tuloy… Hay naku… I remember My Jarahby tuloy… This will be the second Christmas na… Hay… Murag, nanungog ang song ay.. tsk3…
Pasko na naman
Ngunit wala ka pa
Hanggang kailan kaya
Ako’y maghihintay sa iyo
Bakit ba naman
Kailangang lumisan pa
Ang tanging hangad ko lang
Ay makapiling ka
Sana ngayong Pasko
Ay maalala mo pa rin ako
Hinahanap-hanap pag-ibig mo
At kahit wala ka na
Nangangarap at umaasa pa rin ako
Muling makita ka
At makasama ka
Sa araw ng Pasko
Well, as what you wanted me to be, I am actually having a good time for the past days and I can say I am happy to have been surrounded by good people; people who were true to others and specially to their selves… I’m glad that you’ve helped me realized that you’re not worthy of time.
We all have differences and we journey through life in different paths. Whatever unpleasant things that had happened in your life; you have to deal with it without hurting someone.
All of us have problems, struggles in life, been in pain, there is no exception, even you. So, don’t always think that you’re so pathetic and that you’re life is so miserable than me or anyone, learn how to deal with it, learn to accept and find a way to surpass that feeling.
You’re thinking that I don’t have any problems in my life… Ah, not thinking… you are assuming… yah, as always… you’re assuming that I don’t have any struggles in life… that my life is so full of never ending happy moments… duh… I’m just human dude! I have my share of unhappy moments, sorrows and pain but I have learned how to deal with it… I just wish you would too… The world won’t stop revolving just because of you… you’re not that special!
You don’t know what I’ve been through so stop assuming.
Well, thanks for all the good times though… Don’t worry I’ll live a happy life, as always…
, lol. He was not that showy of his feelings before, well, people change and so does he… He had changed a lot… Well, I don’t have to think about him anymore, I have to think of myself now. Plan something good for the upcoming year 2010… Hmm.. it’s gonna be a NEW YEAR for me… I may not really forget everything on my past but hopefully I can manage to slowly forget and really MOVE ON… Good Luck to meh! 
